Dear Future Girlfriend/Fiancée/Wife,

I haven’t met you yet. Not that I’m aware. I want you to know that I look forward to the day that we do meet or that I discover you or you discover me, however it may happen. There are a few things I think I should tell you. I look forward to our first kiss; to waking up with you, to you, everyday. Spending time doing nothing together but laying under clouds, under the sheets like we are 8 again trying to stay up late reading without getting caught. I long for you and your support and to be able to support you. When our first child is born and the joy we will share in that moment. The joy in the small things. Lover, Friend, Companion. My heart yearns for you. My soul longs for its equal, its match.

But I just have to wait. I just hope I’m not to late.

I look forward to the day I can say this, when I stay at your place.

Just so you know–

My weird mind wanders and my brave heart breaks.
I’ve nailed some milestones, but I’ve made mistakes,
Cuz I got more faults than a map of California earthquakes.

I am taking a nap beneath your covers.
Wake me if you like me.
Wake me if you want me
Wake me if you need another poem.

Your once and future lover
has made himself at home.

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Its 3:33. I’m not able to sleep. Part of that might be because of the volume of coffee that I’m drinking, and that the more I drink the faster my mind seems to run even though its not making much sense to me. I’m hoping to work up to the point that I can post here at least once a week to just see where my life has been and is going and share that with the world that may or may not want to hear about it. Actually I really don’t give a damn if the world does or doesn’t.

Life is crazy, I’ve taken a job at a coffee shop in addition to my regular job. I feel like this will let me reconnect to myself through others. Its much lower stress and so far I’m really enjoying my time there. Scheduling things has become a pain, but being single has its joys. Its funny to have the feeling of not being attracted to anyone, have the feeling of being near a panic because of your age and that you are single and won’t be settling down for some time but at the same time wanting to start the settling process just because you’re getting older. Life’s funny like that.

School, the one sure thing that I have isn’t so sure anymore. Its that moment when you’re so close; yet so far away and its all from obstacles that I’ve put in the way.

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Yep, still haven’t put up photos. Need to go through them. Might need to find something besides Gallery2. Not putting this on Facebook. Did get a proper split done between accounts. Talking with two people, if I only had the flaps lowered 50% they are now all the way out and I’m looking to deploy the speed break too. Don’t want to rush anything. And yes there is depth and passion for what they do. Dog is good. He’s growing fast. He’s a year in 15 days. Can’t believe I’ve had him for this long. Car = Happy = go = cost monies :( . Still trying to find a job. Now thinking of just some crap job to help go with current part time job. Don’t want to work at the mill with dad.

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So there should be photos coming in the next few days. Its taken me a little time as I’m still looking for another job before I have to leave my current one, and its hard to find a job. There is also a strong possibility that I might be too picky. Still mixed whether or not this gets put on Facebook.

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So i’m working on bring this back to life, slowly but surely. Look for a new Photos section shortly. And finally, The banners are being changed.

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Hi, and welcome, thanks for stopping by. This is a site for me to post my thoughts semi-anonymously and put up stuff for my family to see. The writings are a rambling of a college student/twenty-something-year-old who doesn’t have it figured out yet. Hey at least I’m honest and up front about it. All of the old posts have since been migrated to other happier homes. Feel free to stick around and see what happens or what doesn’t.

=)

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